On Friday February 13 2009 My time in rehab had come to an end. I am extremely anxious about what my life is going to be like without having a counsellour watching over me, a curfew, a regimented daily routine to follow...this is what life is and this is what is going to be a challenge for me. It dawned on me the moment I exited the front doors , with what bags I could carry, like a huge rush of adrenoline. It was the same feeling I had when I got my diploma in highschool at the graduation. I am now free to be an adult but by doing so must make smart choices.
During my six month stay in rehab it was told to me that this would be the perfect opportunity to rediscover who I am, or/and who I can be. People in the real world do not get a chance to be fed, housed, and be looked after (for free) so I can get to my core and build a stronger sense of self and confidence..so I am very lucky to have such an opportunity. I believe the skills that I learned and the advice given is enough for me to begin a safe journey. I do have to continue to remind myself that I am not invinsible and will need continued support from fellow addicts who are in recovery, because they know exactly what it is I am dealing with. The only thing I am concerned with is that we are addicts and when one falls others tend to follow if your not careful. I need to be constantly aware of who is being true to their recovery and who isn't because that is a recipe for disaster when addicts follow each other down the path of relapse!!
The week leading up to my exit I wrote out a recovery plan...for example I wrote up a meal plan for the week, which will pretty much stay the same, so I don't have to put much thought in grocery shopping or what to make on any given day. I wrote down the days I'll attend sober meetings, what days I go to the gym, reminders on what months to go to the doctor and dentist and so on...this enables me to at least have order in my day to day so I am not all over the map. My one big issue that will be a challenge and is extremely important is when I go to bed and when I awake. To keep a full day and not fall into old habits I MUST NOT screw around with my sleep. One day at a time they say..one day at a time. That is all. That is it. My life iss gonna be a challenge but I am looking forward to it, one day at a time!
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Judgmental and Nosy Christians
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There's nothing I hate more than fake people. I also can't stand
nosy, judgmental people. This all comes from an incident during this
weekend.
I had...
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3 comments:
Very Moving Bro actually evoked tears of happiness to know your strength to over come. To know the extreme hardships we faced growing up and all the different situations that have tried to ensnare us I'm glad you have gotten a grip on your journey, and as I said at one point please forgive me for the foolish name calling we do as kids It was never in malice only what I thought was the normal function of childs play. ONE LOVE BRO! You'll go on to teach and do great things!
You brought tears to my eyes. I believe that you have discovered a strength within yourself that was always there but you didn't know you had. I am so happy for you and I have faith that you will follow the right path. Don't forget that you don't need to be perfect and don't live your life to please others. Just focus on yourself and don't ever give up. You are a beautiful spirit, don't ever forget it! XOXO
I am one lucky soul to have the beautiful energy that flows from each one of you. Leon you know me too well, but I believe now, although it has taken me a bit of time, that I have moved on from that head space. I look at you, from time now, as an inspiration. I want to achieve so much and I see you and your achievements as a means to reach my own goals. Monica You are such a sweetheart and I have always respected your advice. We never took each other too seriously and that is why I believe our friendship is still strong. Even though we hardly see each other, I find having you in my life an joy and a blessing.
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