Death and Addiction

This past week I found out that one of the guys I spent 6 months in rehab with, passed away 7 weeks earlier from a drug related heartattack. He was 30 years old. I didn't know what to think when I heard the news. It came out of left field and left me thinking about how important it is not to go back to drugs, especially crack. the gentleman who passed away had quite abit of clean time. he finished school and went out to celebrate the occasion. He ended up drinking and using crack heavily. I was told the heart attack happened while he was asleep. This scares me because an addict can relapse at anytime if not careful, or have a binge night to celebrate something, such as a graduation. Only thing is it may be your final time on this earth. Once clean for x amount of time, the body cannot handle the stress of drug use to that capacity. You the person, believe because you used to do that great of an amount that you can do it again. WRONG!!!

Not only am I afraid of dying a junkie, but it is heartbreaking to think of the many individuals that I have met over time will succumb to the disease. It is depressing but a fact of life. We do have the strength to live "normal" lives as opposed to being in the streets, but we must believe it. We cannot be afraid to be happy or not feel that we are worthy of happiness. I don't wanna hear this news of death of another addict...hey remember so and so...well he got hit by a truck running from the cops..or he was shot and killed in a boched robbery...or he died of a heartattack.., but because THIIS IS MY REALITY..it will continue

Take care of yourselve..

ciao for now,

Mardi Reid