Don't Sweat The Small Stuff

My blood is increasingly boiling over the fact that I trusted someone to simply do me a favour, which they obliged, now I can't even get a hold of them anywhere. Last weekend for the fashion show, I asked someone to video tape it for me using my camera. She forgot her ticket and by the time the show began she was nowhere to be found. I called her and she was mad that they didn't let her park without paying the $15 dollar charge again. I can understand that, but she left with my camera and today I still don't have it..almost a fucking week later.

I am attached to this camera like flies on rice, so it has been a terrible week because my stressing over it. I cannot do anything about her actions and that really gets me. Everywhere I went I was aggravated by the slightest thing that wouldn't bother me normally. I honestly began to mildly have a melt down.

I sure in hell didn't want to use drugs or anything like that. I just don't understand why someone would be so blatantly inconsiderate. Let go and let God they say at Anonymous Meeting..but I just want to Let go and Let my foot break off in SOMEONES ASS!!

I allowed something that may be in fact "small" grow into something enormous. I can feel the stress all over, and stress my friends is a leading cause of so many ailements. Why am I obsessing, I feel betrayed, hurt, and second class to her fucking life

For the life of me I just want to find her, get my shit and be done...but I know it is not in my power to do so. Don't sweat the small stuff ...let go and let GOD..yeah Yeah Yeah..I am learning now that I have to change my way of thinking cause it could pose a threat to my sobriety whether I believe it or not. I may not go back and use but I can still harbour resentments and carry on the behaviours of a substance abuser. That is something I do not want. Thanks for listening and have a blessed evening.

ciao for now,

Mardi Reid